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I’ve Been Posting alot recently, eh?

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

Well, i dunno why, but i say why not. Some of them are funny, other personal, others geeky. This link i just thing has to be shared to all my (2) readers.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

This site is postcards sent in by people all over the world, and is a way of saying we are not alone. A way of sharing your secret with people, but the people not knowing who you are. Some of them funny, others personal, others depressing, others inspirational. Some of the comments if you scroll down far enough:

“I wish I could give all these people on the site a hug and tell them it’s ok to be human.”
-Washington DC

“Hello…I was reading through the postcards sent to you on your website, and I came across one that really touched my heart. The Suicidal Soldier’s postcard panged my soul in such a way that I had no choice but to cry. I wish there was some way I could reach out and hug that person. I want so badly to help them, but I know I can’t. I mean, I don’t even know them and here I am wishing they knew I cared about them. Strange isn’t it?”
-Massachusetts

“Thanks to all the brave and wonderful people sending in their secrets – it’s good to know I’m not that different after all.”
-Germany

“Some are heart-breaking, some are scary, some are upsetting, but all of them give hope. For if a person has the courage to post up their secret on this site, then they are taking the first step.”
-Great Britain.

“Now, strangers aren’t so different.”
-Maryland

“I can never put my secret on paper. I can never say it. I can’t even think of it for a long time.”
-Bulgaria

“The more I looked through the postcards, the more I wanted to make one. Then I saw one that I could have made; I just didn’t know it until I saw it. The card itself told me a secret about myself that I didn’t know.”
-Georgia

“The things that make us feel so abnormal, are actually the things that make us all the same.”
-New Zealand

“Recently you posted a card with a water lily on it that stated “For the first time in my life, I feel beautiful, and it is not due to anyone but me. Finally.” That was my card. I don’t think that I ever would’ve told anyone that I finally felt beautiful, but once you posted my card, I posted it with a link to PostSecret, saying that it was mine. I’m not afraid to feel beautiful anymore.”
-New Hampshire

“So many of my secrets are there, without even sending a card.”
-Mexico

“How I feel is not so uncommon.”
-Canada

“I sent you a postcard this morning, and i just wanted to tell you that for the first time in years, I felt calm and happy within myself.”
-Florida

“This is the most magical thing I’ve seen for a long time. It’s like one of those card tricks I don’t ever want to know the secret to.”
-Canada

“I don’t feel entirely alone when I go through the postcards on your website. Or rather, I still feel alone, but I feel like there are a lot more people alone with me.”
-New York

“I never knew that people are so identical. They just pretend they are not.”
-Egypt

“All of them are real – even if the people sending them don’t know it.”
-North Carolina

“We’re all pretty much one person.”
-Kentucky

Im gonna go continue reading it

Music:
Baba Yetu from the album “Shine” by Talisman A Cappella

[posted with ecto]

A birthday card that struck my heart

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

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Thats my goal, thats my house.

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poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

Forever Cold

To someone that will hear my plea

I feel the rays of the sun on my body
Yet the warm feeling doesn’t begin
I’m so cold on the outside and inside
No one is here to make me feel warm again.
That’s really all I want right now
Is someone by my side
Someone to hold me through the darkness
Someone to be my guide.
Yet still no one is here with me
No one seems to care
Now my life seems so empty
So empty and so bare.

(by Ashley)

Protected: Well…

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

…things took and unexpected turn this week. I’m single again, and miss being with someone. And sometimes I can see how people can be afraid of commitment, othertimes, fear of commitment is a no-show. Anyway we broke up cause i felt she was about to break up with me anyway(but wasnt), and that i felt all i was doing was holding her back. I miss her SOOOOO much though, and im not willing to let go. Will probably cause me more pain, but ill suck it up. If i could turn back time, i wouldnt want to fix anything else in my life accept this relationship, take back breaking up, and learn how to shape up for her. But i guess moving on is the better answer. I just dont know what to do. Standing at an unmarked crossroad, with no knowledge of left, right, or straight, confused, and lost forever. Im not really sure i have a chance with her anymore, but im gonna fight till i die to get her back

hope your lives are doing better

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poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

All hope is lost
shes gone
and nothing will bring her back
and all the pain that comes with this
wont defeat me
i will survive
For what is life, if we are dead?

Well, schools starting to get in…

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

Well, schools starting to get into the swing of a normal schedule. I know where all my classes are, and remember what order they go in. I feel special. Not extreme overdosage of homework. Yet. Got my normal gang at lunch, we mumble on all lunch. thoyre’s well, stressed as he usually is. It doesnt help that hes the main tech repair for the school basically. Ah well, he’ll send me on those errands eventually.
So my chaos has started. Love my laptop, love my new mp3 player. love my zannah most of all.

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poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

zan, my love, my only, where are you?
why cant you be here?
why does it feel i havent seen you for years?
I have the patience, do you?
Why are you so free?
dont i deserve less?
why do you love me?
am I really great enough for soemone to love me?
how far can this relationship go?
I Love You

Reading…

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

Reading Rosie’s and Haley’s blogs, ive sorta been sprung into the facts of school, and the facts of what people do to people and what they do to themselves. I see whats happening with kids of this age. Raised on TV, where people make fun of people and the person, at least on TV, doesnt react at all. And if the person does react, on tv and in life, the person trying to have a little fun hurts the other person to tears. Or farther. And the teaser just laughs.
What they see is that doing this to people A)makes the person feel inferior and B)makes the teaser feel better about themselves. All they want is to feel better about themselves, not caring what they do. They also have the potencial to be the person they are teasing(usually the introverted ones or A students), but dont because they would turn into the person they are making fun of. And if they became one of them they would be teased. so they become failing students and pretend to not care. Part of it is no support at home, but the rest is trying to be “cool.” So failing is cool? Working at fast food restaurants or minimum wage jobs cool? Do they just not realize that failure now means no nice cars later?
Ok, so parents are supporting them, why dont they do it for themselves? do they want to become what their parents are? do they see where their going? Or do they just want to be cool now and suffer later? Does anyone see why?

Protected: 15

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

The age 15 seems to have alota bad things associated with it for everyones lives. Its really amazing. One year. Chaos. Complete chaos. And I seem to be making a nice chapter for myself for this year currently havent I? I mean, just this summer i fell in a severe state of love, lost 2 best guy friends, learned that wheaton is a brick wall when it comes to emotions, Maryland, etc….So I feel the worst ever. The thing is, i went to my open house, saw an awesome friend whom gave me a hug, and i put on a fake smile told her i fell in love and am in a relationship. I mean no use trying to mope around a good friend. so i didnt tell her it all but then i was happy to be seeing thoyre(tech teacher), so i really wasnt too down. How could i not be happy i saw alotta people i knew and liked alot. and went and said hi to the teachers of yesteryear. Amazing how such small things can break your whole life apart. Well the thing that broke me today was melody being in a bad mood and hit me hard about my girlfriend. She just doesnt have the patience for people like her. I think it was all down to anger and she migiht nto have ment it.

Heres hoping.

Its just our family is so close that to hear it from one of us isnt good. whats worse is shes related by the blood so its worse. I’m ok now guys. Just remember: if you havent been through the age that is 15 AKA HELL, WATCH OUT. It’ll kick you around, but remember most of the adult population has been through it

cheers

Protected: im fine everyone

poset97qq — Thu, 01 Jan 1970 00:00:00 +0000

all i really need is a hug from someone outside the immediate family and i cant do that right now. tis lovely to talk to people for late night, but school call soon, and i wont be able to do it. not to mention i dont get to use this laptop for a while. i hope to get my own soon. Id like to thank everyone that listened to my problems lately, and apologize for giving them so much of my stress, i apologize but sometimes i need to vent. THANK YOU