Poor Zan. Nothing going for her. Couldnt leave today, car decided it wasnt ready. Also realized personally that if i tried to be with someone else, it wouldnt work. I couldnt open up to anyone except Susannah. I couldnt open up with anyone else the way i do zan. Realized also im spoiled in the way of food, too much fast food and i start to not have an appetite.
A lighter note but not really: i got my schedule for the 2004-2005 school year. With that came a reinstation of my report card, a 3.5 gpa, and all the other goodies for parents to know.

Zan: Whenever im not around you, i feel you in spirit. Watching over me even if you are still here on Earth and not gone away.

Everyone be nice to Zan