Ok so i know i have to plan for college and all, but at 15? does it really matter now? Wont i change my mind before then? why start planning now? whats it matter NOW? Barely starting high school and already college has to be part of my life. pain. agony. The only thread of support is smashed. i have no one else. all my friends dont matter, so why should i matter? Whats life matter? Ive known for years lifes not fair. Ive accepted that already. I never have been able to set up a plan for my life, not specifics, never specifics. Only a vague outline. Im not like you. Your not like me.

what part of that can you not see?