…SO GO DO IT!! Dentist today, NO CAVITIES!!!! then mowed the yard, definetly needed it. realized ive just defeated the purpose of a shower by taking one then dentist then mowin the yard. fun fun. well uh have fun everyone and take care of zan, miss you honey bunny!

the nate person thingy from NC

the following is quoted from a letter to the parents of Nathan Tremmel:

Congratulations. Nathan has been nominated to Who’s Who Among American High School Students!

Nathan is in the top 5% of students who have achieved academic excellence and will have an academic biography printed in the 38th edition of Who’s Who Among American High School Students, along with the opportunity to receive college scholarship money! This is an honor which will afford Nathan numerous benefits. Some of our valuable services include:

The opportunity to compete for over $202,000 in scholarships
More than $3,600,000.00 has been awarded to date!

Use of our College Referral Service?: Students may complete a form indicating which institutions they wish us to notify of their honorary award, linking Who’s Who students with colleges and universities and other potential scholarships and financial aid opportunities.

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ok in case you didnt know this is my first year in high school and already something like this? Do i have potencial to go ever higher?

heres carissa strangling wheaton boy:
the killing

1. Who are you?(optional can be anon)
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When’s the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
14. Are you going to put this on your blog to see what I say about you?

Zans at wheatons, heres a few highlights of how well wheaton and zan get along:
imposing pictures

…in your life where everything is going bad? I think ive hit that currently. Yet at the same time things are so wonderful with me and zan. but on of the things going bad is shes left for vermont. Still dating though…
and ive just learned today that dads applied for a job in MARYLAND. The people are serious about dad as a worker there. it starts in sept if he gets it, so i start school then leave in the beginning. Whats life trying to tell me? Help me

Poor Zan. Nothing going for her. Couldnt leave today, car decided it wasnt ready. Also realized personally that if i tried to be with someone else, it wouldnt work. I couldnt open up to anyone except Susannah. I couldnt open up with anyone else the way i do zan. Realized also im spoiled in the way of food, too much fast food and i start to not have an appetite.
A lighter note but not really: i got my schedule for the 2004-2005 school year. With that came a reinstation of my report card, a 3.5 gpa, and all the other goodies for parents to know.

Zan: Whenever im not around you, i feel you in spirit. Watching over me even if you are still here on Earth and not gone away.

Everyone be nice to Zan

Ok so i know i have to plan for college and all, but at 15? does it really matter now? Wont i change my mind before then? why start planning now? whats it matter NOW? Barely starting high school and already college has to be part of my life. pain. agony. The only thread of support is smashed. i have no one else. all my friends dont matter, so why should i matter? Whats life matter? Ive known for years lifes not fair. Ive accepted that already. I never have been able to set up a plan for my life, not specifics, never specifics. Only a vague outline. Im not like you. Your not like me.

what part of that can you not see?

NOTES TO SELF:
?Carissa has awesome taste in music(CSN ROCKS)
?people i can talk to are completly awesome
?some people are really stupid
?some people are really caring
?using the apple sign for this is going to annoy the pc users
?Zannah DEFINETLY cares too much for it to just be a high school relationship
?Carissa just had me buy another CSN(suite: Judy Blue Eyes; [update:a song so much about me and zan])
?CSN IS AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME
?parents are parents, and i realize they are just watching out for me

EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT DAY LIKE I JUST HAD(except for a small thing that i wont bother you with) hung out with zannah all day

Its just hit me. The internet is an amazing tool. Its not just fun. Think about Happy Dale, its uniting 2 people from NC to well alot of people in vermont. Think about AIM or ICQ or any of the others, people across the nation, even across the WORLD, can type and even TALK to a person living 20000 miles away. I met Rosie and Laura through AIM via wheaton. Things like the livejournal community that zannah created. Things like this blog, email. All ways to express whatever you feel. And that we do. So much freedom, so little time. And so much you can do. People can stay informed with the latest news, from tech to worldwide news such as bbc news. Even to news in our own hometown. All online. Amazing. And to think the internet sprouted from a military technology to keep all the military united in case of something bad with redundancy to avoid a disaster area. Email is another example of military tech going worldwide. And now just about everyone is online, many now joining the group carrying broadband internet(thats the fast stuff). So thank the military for giving this technology to the public, and thank blogger for their great blogging service